She does not sleep anymore, and so the nightmares left her. Still, whenever she sits by the window and watches the water slowly slide down the glass, her thoughts wander. Her mind is as relentless as the droplets of rain.
It is almost funny, she thinks, when her chest still heaves in a facsimile…
That would be so much better!
But this Renesmee who just bats her pretty eyelashes and runs through the forest in frilly white dresses and leaps into the air to charmingly catch snowflakes? THAT’s Jacob’s destined eternal companion? Why does Jacob (or any imprinter) have to change who HE is to suit the girl?? Why can’t the girl they imprint on already be compatible?
Maybe as Renesmee grows up she’ll develop into a person who is more compatible with Jacob, but this whole “loves to read and study” thing that the guide outlines so far doesn’t sound like they are an ideal match to me. Maybe she develops an interest in cars from her dad and likes to work on fixing them with Jacob and Rosalie. I just hate the idea that Jacob will have to give up all of HIS hobbies and passions to do whatever Nessie wants for all eternity.
The guide says her hobbies are “hunting with Jacob, reading, studying and spending time with her parents and other members of the Cullen family.” And that she’s home schooled by her ‘parents, extended family, and friends.’ But we don’t SEE her spending time with them (other than a little bit with Rosalie).
You know Alice just dresses her up and does her hair. Throws elaborate tea parties where Nessie doesn’t want to drink any of the expensive tea or eat any of the petit-fours because ew, human food, gross.
I honestly don’t know that she does anything “for fun” with Carlisle. In the book she clearly finds his measuring of her and her check-ups annoying. She sighs and rolls her eyes. Presumably he goes back to work after the Volturi crisis passes so he’s probably not doing the lion’s share of her tutoring either. I’d say they might read together (Carlisle is clearly a reader with his huge library) but Bella seems to have that taken care of.
Emmett probably wants to play and run around with her. Pick her up and toss her in the air. Whether Edward and Jacob will allow that, IDK. lol.
People like to imagine Esme and Renesmee cooking together but… why? Renesmee doesn’t like human food, why would she be interested in making cookies with “grandma?” Maybe they do art together.
I honestly don’t feel like Jasper has any relationship with her at all. Maybe he goofs around with her and Emmett or he helps with her education in some way. I didn’t get the sense he was all that interested in her from the book though.
Rosalie does all the Mom stuff that Bella and Jacob don’t.
(And WHY is a girl whose hobbies are reading and studying JACOB’s perfect match? At least Bella had her adrenaline junkie phase. Is Jacob forced to just sit around and watch in rapt attention as Nessie does her math homework??? What do they have in common???)
She knew she had to carry on. Not just for her surviving family, but for Leah. If she let the pain consume her, if she let her grief drive her to end her own existence, then Leah’s death would have been in vain. She couldn’t do that to Leah. She couldn’t do that to Sue.
Most importantly, she couldn’t do that to Carlisle.
She knew he would have wanted her to live. To keep what remained of their family together, to keep his legacy alive and to continue to live as an example to vampires everywhere.
Their family has been cleaved in half: Carlisle, Jasper, Edward and Bella were gone. Rosalie and Emmett had adopted Renesmee (who was asking to be called Carlie now, in honor of her fallen ‘grandfather’) while Alice and Esme simply tried to keep from throwing themselves on a fire.
"I’m sure all this sounds a little bizarre, coming from a vampire. But I’m hoping that there is still a point to this life, even for us. It’s a long shot, I’ll admit. By all accounts, we’re damned regardless. But I hope, maybe foolishly, that we’ll get some measure of credit for trying."
I’m not sure what happened here. Maybe Emmett forgot one of their 374232 anniversaries. Again.
I’m not really that good with the couple names but I think if I had to pick I’d prefer Caresme. I mean his name Car-lisle not Carl-isle so I think it makes more sense to leave out the L. Usually I just think of it as C/E though because I am lazy. lol. I think Rosemett looks nice and “Emmelie” sounds much prettier to me than “Renesmee” does. Jalice is a bit weird but I don’t think there’s a better way to combine them. Jasplice? lol. Alisper?
I like “Bedward” for E/B because it’s like forward, backward, Bedward. They are heading to a bed—all that sexual tension. haha.
I will say that as much as I’m not a big fan of the idea of Isle Esme (I felt like Esme and Carlisle were more simple and humble than that), it’s fun that it has part of his name (-isle) in it along with hers. ”Esme Island” wouldn’t have that, but Isle Esme does.